what if?

A lot of "what ifs" goes through my head
makes me wonder and keeps me up
all night in my bed.

A lot of tears run down my memories
thinking about the smiles and the pains.

It just seems like yesterday
pain never seem to fade. I am hurt deeply
somewhere which doesn't seem to heal.

I am on my heels to heal
but always scared to fall right back over my head.

Last time I fell head over heels it was love,
this time it is a bed of nails...