I accept who I am, probably it is the hardest thing to do, but then it can be the smartest thing to do and move on with yourself and let others around you live in peace and not in a threatened environment all of a sudden. I guess I am a disturbed soul from my childhood I like constant attention things which my mother never offered and father ran away from. I seriously don't want to be always accord mating may be cause I am just sooo bloody tired from those golden words of my father always spoken to me in everyday, you would manage starting from looking bad in school cause they didn't buy a belt to not getting a gift. I guess I understand but then I have my wants well to that I guess not everyone really understand may be I just want them to understand and shout it out, why didn't you just get that iPod why did I have to get it myself I guess I picked up on people around me needs and surprised them somewhere not for the most altruistic reason but the hope within that they would respond. I guess my expectation of the unsaid, I guess does my undoing, may be I am not meant to be a relationship... But I can't blame myself forever for who I am I guess I just need to accept and move on, may be write more often be with myself may be not the best person to be in a relationship but then I guess not everyone gets everything in life... I guess I accept who the fuck I am.... And work with what I have and no more being sad and being lonely you can be your best shield in the inter and Ray of hope in th never ending nights in th deep dungeons we call life...