May be this life is not meant for me

I have been thinking this is very unsettling to be feeling settled
There is something disturbing about stability I got used to the constant motion,
The motion kept me alive and breathing and thinking
This stagnation there are no travels there are the same old faces
There are the same issues, the same jokes, the same complains,
what i found in books is to be beyond who i could be everyday discovering something new
what I come back to today is the same good old stagnation there is
excitement in the research i do but what about this life
may be i am meant to be lost, I don't know where is this all playing along
I don't have the tinker worth of curiosity of ending up in someone arms
I guess at some level i have lost faith in people as they were
they are just a bag of fucking pain i need to live with every day
I always wanted to be free what i end up is in shackles in my little world
I want to coup in and be free today lets just be disconnected and curl up in this
this little world which i want to be... :D